Oh, we ramble on again....

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So, for all of you who might not know, KomicKarl announced the winner to his contest on February 29th. The winner is Ben Gilboa !! His story is titled "With Naked Eyes". KomicKarl will be posting character sketches, and the comic on his site. Three cheers for Ben! It'll be a GREAT comic to read, be sure to check it out when KomicKarl posts it. And for those of you who are interested, KomicKarl plans on having another "You Write It and I will Draw It" contest at the end of summer. He's a generous, albeit crazy, man. Be sure to give him props.


So, onto the news part.....


For anyone who visits my husband's page you already know this. But for those of you who don't:

We're having a baby!

I'm due September 27th, three days after my birthday. We're hoping for a girl, but praying for a healthy baby. We get to hear the heartbeat at the end of this month, and we'll get to find out the gender at the end of next month. (I apologize to those of you who think we should wait until the baby is born, but I look at it as I'm just as surprised, only 5 months earlier. Plus, I like to plan accordingly).

It really threw me for a loop. We were just talking the week earlier if we could even HAVE kids...we wanted them in a couple of years, but everyone we knew had already been "surprised", and we were yet to have a decent pregnancy scare. Well, a week later: guess we can!

I'm still in a bit of shock. My biggest concern right now (after the "we gotta get a bigger place", "who will we get to babysit" "how will our schedules work" "will it be healthy" "how much time do I take off work" and the long list of typical others) is HOW am I going to balance motherhood, a full time job, PLUS writing/personal passions? I was in a bit of a writer's stump before, and I haven't been able to write anything other than personal ramblings (such as this journal) since I found out. I don't know. I was my mother's WHOLE life when I was growing up....I guess I just don't have an idea as to how I'll do it. Not that I blame my Mom. She's one of the most fantastic, brave people I've ever had the honor to know. I'm thankful that my Mom is that kind of a person. It's just that she and my grandmother really went out of their way to make my childhood great, at their own personal sacrifice, and I'm afraid that if I don't do the same, I won't be as good of a Mom. Or that my kids will miss out. I don't even know if I could BE that type of a Mom. I just have two desires right now: to be a good, a GREAT mom, and to not loose my personhood. I just don't know how to do both. I'm afraid that I'll have to make a choice between the two, and I'm not sure that would be the wisest decision either. *sigh*

Ah, well. But a baby! That's good news! Our families are excited, and I can't wait to hear the heartbeat at the end of the month. I actually dreamed the other night that it was the 25th, just because I wanted it to be the 26th so badly.

But that's all for now, gents and gals. I know I have some overdue stuff I promised to put up, and I plan on getting to it soon. I just took a hiatus from the net in general to process this bit of news I've shared with you.

Don't forget to keep checking site for Ben Gilboa's winning comic!

And now, I"m going to have a preggie pop, cuz "morning" sickness sucks!

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